Well today is exactly one year on from my last surgery when I had a large mass removed from my pelvic nodes. Since recovering from that I've been on the treatment arm of the Avastin trial. I haven't been feeling great since Christmas and have had some tummy pain so on Saturday I had a CT. My oncologist phoned me this morning and told me I have a 'lesion' somewhere between my stomach and large intestine. So b*******
Good news is it should be operable so I am going in Friday to discuss this. And of course good news thats all they can see, it could always be worse, but I guess this is easing me into Stage IV.
I haven't even told anyone yet apart from my husband who was with me when I got the call. The first person I need to tell is my Mum, but she had a really awful day yesterday and I know this isn't what she needs to hear right now! I won't tell anyone until I've told her, but as I can't bring myself to do it I'm keeping it to myself. Its strange and I feel like if I don't tell anyone then its not real! The old denial
Anyway I'm in danger of rambling and not making sense so I will update on Friday when I find out more.
Cheers everyone and best wishes to you all
Ruth x
